Confession Time! It's good for the soul =)

I have an embarrassing confession to make. 

I don't have a business page.

There, I said it. I admit it! I don't have my own website or even a Facebook page to promote my work. I'm always giving advice to other folks about how great Facebook is because of the ads, insights, etc. and I don't even practice what I preach. I mean, I do have the Shabby Chic Wedding Ideas page, but that's basically a hobby page which will eventually have a companion website. 

I think the most difficult part of starting a page is that I'm a freelancer. I don't have one specific job title. I can do some copywriting: I do business and product name consultations, I can create taglines and provide a variety of other services but I'm not sure how to market what I do when I haven't exactly defined what it is that I do. Make sense? ;) Not to mention, I'm so busy doing for others I haven't had time to really create something for myself. Sad really.

This all comes back to my ADHD and the whole Renaissance Soul thing I blogged about before. My thoughts are so scattered sometimes and the only time I can focus is when I hyper-focus, like when I really delve into a project for someone and work so hard to make it just right for them. I have so many projects going at once that my own wants and needs get put on a back burner and everyone and everything else comes first.

Having been a student of Family and Consumer Science, I see this mostly as a time management issue. I know how to manage my time quite well, but something in my brain doesn't mesh with that idea. Just because we "know" how to do something doesn't mean we CAN always do it the way we want to. I had a therapist once tell me that I'm a perfectionist. I laughed because my life, at the time, was a complete and total mess and I rarely finished ANYTHING. He said that was part of being a perfectionist sometimes. He told me that if I didn't think I could complete something perfectly to my satisfaction, I didn't even bother but it wasn't that I could ignore it because it would still eat away at me. He had a point because this is exactly how I am. I would love for everything to be perfect but when I start a project, I want to know it's going to turn out exactly the way I want it. 

I've had this problem with clients in the past as well. They come to me wanting work done, or needing help and I do everything I can but it's almost like we don't click and I'm trying to get them more involved with the project, trying to get feedback, etc. and they respond like limp noodles. It's like KNOCK, KNOCK... nobody's homeee!! Then I get frustrated because I need their input and there's like a dark cloud hanging over the project until I can inspire them to participate. I still complete the job, of course, but I feel it would be so much better to have them collaborate with me. After all, it is THEIR business or product name, website, product descriptions, sales letter, etc. that I'm working so hard on. 

But back to the "not having a page for my work" thing. This is my goal for the next few months. Before the end of the year, I  WILL have a page dedicated to what I do. Even if I don't have any idea exactly what to call myself... I'm going to have a page and it's going to be great. I'm going to pour some of the energy I use for my clients into my OWN project. It doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be. There's no such thing as perfection anyway, right? =)